We had a family day yesterday bringing my family to the zoo. Yao and Doven were both more excited about the wet children playground then the zoo animals.
I recalled my last 'family day' with dad was the 2nd day he moved to his new place. actually it was a sunday and before i met him, i brought mom and the kids to the bottletree park for an afternoon of fun. It did not cross my mind to bring dad as well, I am so used to leading my life without him.
When i reached his place to fetch him for dinner, he sat at the roadside beside the carpark entrance, and i grumbled to myself why did he sit there by the roadside on the floor, never cross my mind to notice any anormalies.
I drove them all to the hong kong restaurant (茶餐厅）he ordered a pork chop rice - this could be the best meal he had before he passed away, when his food was here he smiled and asked me what was it, as his eyes are really failing him he can't see well anymore, but happily ate his meal.
When i was at the zoo, i noticed this bedridden old lady was with her family, she looks like she is in a coma, with a feeding tube through the nose, I can't compare to them, the fact that they even bother to bring someone who is already in such a capacity out during the family outing means a lot in my opinion. What would it be like if i brought dad along with us to the zoo? would he want to come with us?
Dad used to bring us to the zoo, especially during those drawing contests. There was a photo of him with a broad smile, holding on to my 5 year old sis on a pony ride. My grandma was in the photos as well, he is a filial son i can tell, although he does not know how to express himself he uses his actions.
Dad is with us all the time, i carry along a pic of him in my wallet, this is the only way i can ensure his presence from here on.
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