Seeds of Karma

While I was busy working, I suddenly thought about dad again. The way he walked, the way he sat at the void deck waiting for me to pick him up. These 2 days I started thinking about the way we treated dad.

I was aghasted and totally buffled by why we had treated him this way, I realised that it is the same reason why titanic sank. This statement might sound outrageously silly, but I realised that the eventual outcome, although most of it have to do with my selfishness and stone-heartedness, is a combination of various 'seeds', and causes, some short term, some over a prolong period of time that might even stretch for more then half a century that has erupted in this final tragedy.

All events, causes, effects, seeds, people, places, dharma, are interwind and related. when i was a teenager, i used to think that I am related to Lee Kuang Yew somehow eventually if you look closer at the linkages between individuals in the world (e.g. my cousin's cousin's uncle's wife's neighbour's dog's vet's in-law's in-laws is Lee Kuang Yew).

I believe that physical phenomenon reflects meta-physical reality. Cause and effects work in the physical world, so would it work in the non-physical world, it is a property of reality, therefore, the buddhist concept of Karma has to be the truth.

We didn't have to borrow the concept of inter-lifetime karma for my dad's case, intra-lifetime karmic explanations would be enough.

the lack of communication, plus the lack of compassion and tolerance led to my dad's tragedy. Its as simple as that. Its just that I'll have to pay up somehow, if i allow the seeds of my karma to bloom. I don't have any desire but for my dad to finally attain blissfulness through all the things i have done to honour his name.