Today is another day of deep thoughts. One of my good friend has given me some advise yesterday and it was really helpful to lighten my thoughts a bit yesterday. I am going to call the Amitabha society today to discuss about donations to help distribute buddhist DVDs. Also want to call the buddhist lodge to see if there are prayers i can request for dad.

I have been blinded by ignorant and selfishness, I hope i will awaken from this. I asked myself a question yesterday, how many good deeds have i done in the past one month or for that matter in the last 10 years, I am surprised to find that I can't recall anything. Instead I can actually recall many of the bad deeds or selfish acts that I have done.

Time to action, lets see how far I can go, with what happened to dad, I hope i can find the courage to change for the better.